so i finally met a guy that i am attracted to thats a huge up! Sadly there are about as many unattractive things about him as there are attractive(so they sort-of cancle each other out)...anyways yea so now we are dating(dont worry we "talked" for quite sometime before we jumped into this lol)

Now that you know that I can tell you this.
I have this besterest friend who ive known since i before i was even bore(moms were prego around the same time and friends) and i like took baths with him when i was little and had a crush on him when i was little blah blah the usual old friends crap...anyways we moved away from each other when we were like 8 and he suddenly came back into my life again last year(16) and we have been besterest fucking friends ever since. we have all these plans.about college and we sooo friggn much in common thats it s craZ(u prolly stopped reading this like an hour ago but oh wellz i need to vent) Now what sucks is that idk whats going on here because when he doesnt txt meh or call i get super duper down and then when he does i almost cant breathe and i dont want to admit that i might be feeling what i might be feeling and im upset and confused i mean ive always loved him but not like that...and idk what the crap to do...

hes dating the devil and im dating a guy who doesnt understand my feelings at all...and we are constantly telling each other how good it is to talk to someone so natural and so easy.

he looks at me like im an idiot when johndoe(thts what we will call him)would laugh with me.he calls me hot when john would call me beautiful.


oh...taylor Swifts (oh my my my) is like the perfect song for john doe and i.lol